Throughout this blog I've mentioned how I feel like I'm nothing more than a mom...that I've completely lost my identity. I've mentioned how I feel like I'm no longer "Katie," just a mom. Deep down I've always hoped that wasn't true. I've always hoped that I just wasn't feeling "fulfilled" or maybe I was just bored. Surely others viewed me as "Katie," right? Surely people like me as a person and see me as a person, right? Apparently not. If you can't rely on your spouse to tell you how it is, who can you rely on...I suppose. Apparently Drake failed to show up at husband school the day the"Do these jeans make my butt look big? and other things you should never speak truthfully of" lesson was taught.

I was invited to the birthday party of a friend of mine. I consider this friend one of my closest friends. We've been friends for over 18 years. However, our lives are nothing alike. They have taken completely different paths. I was telling Drake that while I wanted to attend the party, I was afraid I would be uncomfortable because I don't know any of his friends and they aren't the type of people I usually hang out with. We talked a bit about the reasons I wanted to go and the reasons I didn't want to go. Drake said, "You'll be among all the Hollywood types," (That's where he lives and where the party is...and the business he is in) "and you'll be the woman with six kids...just like you always are."

I just sat there...shocked that he would say that. I always knew that was how I felt, but I never knew for sure that it was true. I had really hoped that I was an interesting person. I had really hoped that when I went places with Drake that his friends thought of me as a friend as well. I had really hoped that people were genuinely interested in me as a person. Apparently not though. Apparently I really am just the woman with six kids. Not even my husband thinks I can be anything more than that.