I'm planning on giving Cole a haircut today. I'm thinking maybe a mohawk would look nice. LOL Seriously though, I think I just might do it. His hair sticks straight up anyways, so I might as well try to make it look like it was done purposely! I took this picture this morning so you can see what his hair usually looks like.



No, that's not bed head. His hair had already been combed multiple times today. It just sticks straight up for no apparent reason. It has ever since he was a baby. Sera's is starting to do the same thing. Poor girl. Hopefully it will fall down when it gets longer. Cole's seems to get flatter the longer it is, but I don't want him looking like a girl, so I try to keep it at least short enough so people won't have to wonder, "Is that a boy or a girl? It's wearing blue, so it's probably a boy, but it has long hair and kinda looks like a girl." So, we'll see how the mowhawk goes and how Drake reacts to it when he gets home from New York!

I'm missing Drake terribly. I know he's only been gone a few days, but I'm just not used to it. I hate sleeping alone. Ever since highschool I've had this thing where I just need to hold onto something or someone while I'm sleeping. Of course in highschool, it was always a pillow. Yeah...a pillow...that's it. ;) Now my pillow has been replaced by my husband, and hugging his pillow while I sleep just isn't the same as holding or being held by him. My bed feels so empty without him in it.

Hubby is gone for the week :( I miss him already. How sad is that? It's only been like 36 hours and I'm sad because he's not here with me. LOL

I have plenty to keep me busy though. I have a ton of cleaning to do before Drake's mom gets here and before our landlady inspects the place. Ugh, I really hate cleaning! It needs to get done though and I'm the only one here to do it, so I guess I'd better just suck it up and do it...and yet, here I am, on the computer. Yes, this is really helping me get the cleaning done.

Blah, blah, blah. My life is so freaking boring. Why am I writing about it?

I have officially decided that I dislike living in San Diego :( Okay, so I really decided that quite some time ago. However, I'm feeling it more and more these days. I hate being so far from my family. I hate feeling like I'm missing out on important events in my family's lives. I missed Taleisha's graduation. I really wish I could have been there. I know what a huge day it is in someone's life, and I couldn't be there for her because I live so far away. I want to find a way to make it up to her, but with no extra money just laying around, and short of coming into a bunch of extra cash suddenly, I just can't come up with anything :( I hate that my children barely know their cousins and that when they finally do get together, there's that "warming up" period that they always have to go through before they start feeling comfortable around eachother. I know the relationships I had with my cousins. They weren't that great. Don't get me wrong, they defintiely weren't bad, but I barely know them. I want more for my children and their cousins. I want them to be good friends, not just people they have to hang out with at family gatherings. Drake has asked me to give him five years down here so that he has a decent amount of work history behind him, making it easier to find a new job, and so that he can get retirement benefits from his current job. Five years is getting closer and closer, but is getting more and more difficult to wait out.

On a brighter note, I've decided I'm going to start getting out more. I'm thinking of going to a Toby Keith concert in August. (Oh my gosh, am I actually thinking of spending money on COUNTRY music? What is the world coming to. I'm so ashamed. lol) However, I have no one to go with. :( I'm such a loser LOL. I'd go with Drake, but I need him home to watch the kids and he really wouldn't enjoy it. He'd only go to be with me, so we'd end up shelling out money for the concert, even MORE money for a babysitter, and he wouldn't even enjoy it. It would be a total waste of money. I don't have any friends though and I really don't just want to go alone, so I probably won't end up going :( I'm still thinking of a way to go without looking like a total loser and going alone.

Have you heard that song, "Redneck Woman" by Gretchen Wilson? Yes, more about country music...this is my blog, I can talk about whatever I want to! I was listening to it on the radio the other day and I'm happy to say that while I have this secret shame of enjoying country music, I'm still MUCH to prissy to actually fit in as a redneck. Here are the lyrics that really jumped out at me:

"Victoria's Secret, well their stuff's real nice
But I can buy the same damn thing on a Wal-Mart shelf half price
And still look sexy, just as sexy as those models on TV"

Now I'm sorry, but you absolutely CANNOT compare Victoria's Secret lingerie to Walmart lingerie. That just made me laugh. Walmart stuff is crap. I won't even shop there. (For more reasons than just the fact that their stuff is crap) Besides, there's just something nice about having name brand things. Now, I'm not a brand snob at all, but there really is a HUGE difference in Victoria's Secret vs. Walmart brand. The thought of Walmart lingerie makes makes me shudder.

There are other parts of the song that make me cringe a bit, but I'm just glad to know that while I may listen to country, I'm still a city girl at heart ;)

I really need to finish the things that I start. I currently have so many different projects going and no end in sight for any of them. My biggest project that I NEED to get done are my cloth diapers. I want to use cloth diapers, but didn't want to spend the money on all new ones, so I figured I'd make my own. By the time I was done buying all of the materials, I think I may as well have bought all premade ones. These ones will be cuter though, so at least there's that! Why on earth the things my children poop on need to be cute, I have no idea, but whatever...there's lots of pink and they're cute! The boys have a dinosaur print they've been bugging me to make them diapers out of. I figure I'll get those done right about the time they potty train! LOL

I also have a number of different slings I'm making. The material has been cut out, I just haven't sewn it together. Also, apparently the rings for the slings make PERFECT bracelets...at least according to my two older girls, as they have been mysteriously disappearing one by one. I have a sling that I use, so I have no idea why I'm making more, but hey, it's kinda fun. Maybe I'll sell them off :)

I've given up on the bracelets for my girls. I just suck at beading.

Caitlin has been bugging me and bugging me to crochet her a large blanket that will cover her twin sized bed. I made Emma one, then got tired of crocheting, so Caitlin suffered because of that. I really need to get over to Michaels to buy more yarn because her pink yarn has seemingly gone the way of the sling rings. Apparently yarn makes a good leash when your little brother is pretending to be a dog.

I got the girls some necklaces from the Silver Jewelry Club. They absolutely LOVE them! You really can't beat only paying for shipping! I also got Drake a ring since I have never gotten him a wedding band. The one I want is a little over $1000, so I just can't afford it yet. I didn't want to spend a few hundred on something I didn't really want, so I've settled with spending $6 so at least he has SOMETHING that says he's married. (Well, besides a gaggle of kids and no money ;) ) Some of the stuff on that site is WAY beyond ugly, but some of it is pretty nice. You just have to catch it at the right time!

Drake leaves for New York on a business trip on Monday. I'm pretty sad about that. I miss him when he's gone :( He should be gone until Saturday. I'm sure I'll find something to pass the time. Who knows, the house might actually get clean! Oh my goodness, will wonders never cease? Who am I kidding? It probably won't. Drake's mom is coming to visit soon though, so I suppose it has to get done eventually.

Gosh, am I the most boring person, or what? I keep trying to think of witty things to say that will make people laugh, but they're just not coming. Oh well, you can just be bored reading this, I suppose.

So, what on earth makes me think that I'm interesting enough to have an entire blog by me? Absolutely nothing, but hey, you're the one reading it!

So, a little about me. My name is Katie. You can call me Katie. Don't call me Kate. I really dislike nicknames. Katie is not difficult to say. In fact, it's shorter than most names, so there really is no need to shorten it...so don't :)

I am 26 years old. I'm an Aires. I have no idea what it means to be an Aires other than I was born in the middle of April. Yeah, astrology and such doesn't really interest me, so I have no idea why I'm even mentioning it.

Lately, I've taken to listening to country music. I hate the fact that I like it so much! LOL As I'm driving around, singing along with the radio, all I can think is, "Oh my goodness, I KNOW you're not listening to country music!" I just can't bring myself to change the station though. I almost bought concert tickets the other day to a country singer's concert. I came to my senses pretty quickly though ;) I may or may not have tried numerous times to win tickets from the radio station though.

I'm a mom. That really should have been the first thing I mentioned as it's pretty much all I am lately. I'm bound and determined to be so much more than just a mom though. I used to think I knew who I was. Then, I became a mom and that's all I was. That's all I am. I somehow lost everything else along the way. I'm bound and determined to not only find it all again, but to discover new things about myself that I may have never known. I have five children. Caitlin is 6, Emma is 5, Cole is 3, Ethan is almost 2 and Sera is 1 month old now.

Caitlin just finished the first grade today. She is an...ummmm....spirited child. She's basically a 16 year old girl in a 6 year old body. Not only does she know everything, but because she does, she obviously doesn't have to listen to anything I say. Pretty much the only excuse I get when I ask her why she does something that I had just told her not to do is, "Because I wanted to," with a shrug. Yeah, she's a handful. I absolutely adore her. I think she's going to be the type of person I always wanted to be, but was too afraid of making waves to do it. She has a no nonsense attitude and she won't let anyone take advantage of her. She's not afraid to speak her mind and I absolutely love that about her...even if it infuriates me at times.

Emma is my sweetheart. She's always the first to give me a hug and tell me how beautiful I am. She's quick to help and never complains about it. She'll be starting Kindergarten in the fall and is absolutely beyond thrilled! She is SO ready to get out there and find out what there is beyond the walls of our home. She's extremely sensitive and is always trying to please everyone. She reminds me a lot of myself, which scares me a bit.

Cole is...well, he's Cole. lol He's full of spunk. He has a personality and a sense of humor well beyond his years. Most children his age find something that makes an adult laugh and does it over and over again until it ceases to be funny...then does it even more. Cole, on the other hand, realizes that things are usually only funny once, but will be funny again if you wait a couple of weeks, then bring it up again. He purposely messes up knock knock jokes because he thinks they're funnier when the person thinks they know the punchline, then you say something that makes absolutely no sense, or is actually the punchline to a different joke. He is a constant crack up. He's also my little snugglebunny. One of his favorite things to do is to come into my bed, cuddle up with me and say "snugglebunny, snugglebunny, snugglebunny." I love my little snugglebunny.

Ethan is this thick, solid almost two year old. When he comes running, you'd better watch out because he'll knock you over! lol His favorite thing to do is to pretend he's a dinosaur. He doesn't talk at all yet and he just started walking, so we're a little concerned that he's not meeting his developmental milestones, but he's an absolute joy...well, that is, unless he's taking off his dirty diaper and smearing it everywhere...that's not exactly a joyful experience. He absolutely idolizes his older brother and sisters. They are his world. He follows them around everywhere!

Sera is such a good little baby...so far ;) She's having some medical issues, so that has been stressful, but one look at that precious little face of hers and all of your worries just melt away. She gave me her first smile the other day. I was a puddle of mommy love. lol Since then, she's just been all smiles...mainly for her older siblings. There is just pure adoration in her eyes when they're around.

So, like I said, my children are my life. I'm not really much of anyone other than a mom right now. I hope to change that though. I find that I'm so much happier when I can do something for myself...when I can be "Katie" rather than just "mom." When I'm happy, the family is happy, so it really behooves the whole family for me to break out of the mom mold every once in a while.